Monday, November 25, 2019

Blue

I attended a memorial service today for a 25 year old who ended his own life.  No parent should ever have to bury their own child.  The church was packed.  Every person who spoke did eloquently--not too short, not too long.  

I've never felt so down or hopeless that I didn't want to be here.  But, people actually do have those feelings.  It's so hard to reconcile that people are in that much pain.  It makes me very sad to think of their suffering.  

I took my son with me today.  There were so many young adults in the church.  My son is the same age as the brother who was left behind.  They go to high school together and attend Sunday school together.  I know the mom from church and other things.  She is a lovely person who has had a lot of tragedy in her life--not including this one.  My prayer is for strength for both of them.  I pray they will feel the love of Christ surrounding them.  

This was the first funeral/memorial that I attended where a parent has outlived the child.  In all my days, I hope I never have to experience another one.