Monday, September 28, 2015

My new favorite bird

I've always loved the roadrunner, the woodpecker (all kinds) and the cardinal.  But recently, the hummingbird has taken my fancy.  We have a feeder just outside the window by the kitchen table.  I sit here when I'm on the computer.  I've been watching several hummingbirds all summer, but lately, we've only had one.  The feathers look unkempt and muted in color.  I think this one is trying to fatten up before the long journey to warmer climates.  Some days, the pesky wasps scare off the bird by ganging up on him.  My favorite being bothered by my least favorite of all.  

I can feel fall descending upon us.  Gray skies, cooler temperatures.  Perhaps, that's the reason for my melancholy today.  My husband's father was here the past weekend and we had a lovely time.  Maybe the let-down from having company is responsible, too.  

One thing that cheers me up for sure is travel and planning travel.  I *hope* to make it to Portugal Saturday.  My friend is flying there from France and since I'm back at the airport, I'm going standby.  I'm anxious and excited and hoping the shift trade gets approved so I can fly out Friday night.  I've never been to Portugal but have only heard great things about it.  Fingers crossed.

Yes, I'm working again at the airport.  It's for a different company and a different manager.  She's great, my age and very fair.  She'll thank me as she's heading out for the day and I thank her for being a reasonable boss.  She knows the other guy I used to work for, so she knows it's a real compliment.  

I don't know why, but I really like the airline industry.  The pay is horribly low and I don't know how people really make a go at it.  If my husband didn't have a great job, I would be looking for something else--I would have to.  The health care field is all but nil in this town.  No nuclear med jobs to think of.  A clinic had an opening maybe 6 months ago and I didn't even get an interview.  I've all but given up on getting back into the lucrative field.  Some days I miss it, others not so much.  I still volunteer at the free medical clinic in town and it's gratifying.  But...I'm conflicted.  I feel like I need a break, but feel guilty for feeling that way.  

I'm going to try to blog more often now.  The kids are both in middle school and God knows I've got time on my hands.

Thanks for reading.


Monday, January 26, 2015

"Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words will never hurt me."

If only this were true.

Saturday, January 10, 2015

My husband went on a hunting trip last Wednesday.  I've been on my own for a few days.  It has been easier than when the kids were very young, but I've been driving and driving and driving.  They have activities such as tutoring, piano, guitar, and sports.  Today was a very busy, but fun day.  Still, I don't know how single parents keep their sanity.  I'm exhausted.  And lonely.  

So, one of the carriers at the airport is hiring.  I applied and am waiting to hear back.  I don't know if I'm ready for the early mornings but I need to be around people and feel like I'm doing something worthwhile.  I still volunteer but that's about it for getting out and about.  It sucks to be an extrovert sometimes.

I'm missing being around family too.  I enjoyed Christmas break so much.  It was fun to hang out with my sister and her husband.  It was great seeing my parents.  I saw my brother's granddaughters.  Sigh.  I'm working on my attitude on living in the cold north.  As my mom once told me, "Bloom where you're planted." 

Wednesday, December 31, 2014

Goodbye 2014, Hello 2015.

It's the end of 2014 and I hope this year was everything you wanted it to be.  I've had good health this year, as so my family.  I just saw my parents and siblings and their families for the holidays.  I'm aware of the limited times I will get to be with all my relatives for the next Christmases to come.  Sometimes it feels like time stands still and other times it moves so quickly that I can't catch my breath.  

I'm thankful for my children even though it is hard sometimes parenting.  But, I would rather take my role seriously than raise children who grow up to be a burden on society. I'm lucky, so far.  

I got to go home for the holidays this year.  Thanks to my sister using miles to fly all four of us home.  We had a good time.  The kids learned to play poker!  Hahaha!  Nothing like going to the Bible Belt to learn to play poker.  Pete and I worked out everyday at a fitness club.  It helped us from gaining that weight that we usually pack on.  I got to go to my favorite place in Fayetteville--Hugo's.   The kids got to eat at Sonic.  I even got some yummy donuts from the south!  I love coming home.  It's always so hard to leave.  :(

So, I hope next year brings peace to you and yours.  Happy new year!

Thursday, December 18, 2014

It's the most wonderful time of the year...

I made a tomato tart last night.  So simple.  I made the crust and then put it in the tart pan with removable sides that I bought in France.  It consisted of mozzarella, basil, tomato slices, olive oil, salt and pepper.  I added garlic last night, too.  My son inhaled it.  My husband was appreciative.  My daughter ate a small slice.  While I started making this recipe in the summer with all the cherry tomatoes that sprouted from the compost, it seemed to be a perfect recipe for this time of year with all the red and green from the tomatoes and basil.  Of course, I had to buy the veggies for this at Christmas time, but that's OK.  

Christmas time.  I can't seem to get excited about anything.  I feel so alone most of the time.  I miss being near family and having close friends.  I recently had a second interview at a place I already volunteer, but they went for the candidate with supervisory experience.  I felt like this would be my ticket to get back into the workforce and be around people.  I suck at being a homemaker.  Oh, I know that for a fact because my husband tells me so.  Oh well.  First world problem and I need to pull myself up by my bootstraps.  At least, I got bootstraps.  So many people don't.

I love to bake, especially this time of year.  Sugar cookies, peanut butter blossoms, Mexican wedding cookies.  I love decorating the sugar cookies with butter cream frosting.  A chance to be creative.  I actually can control myself around the cookies, too.  I guess when you can bake whatever, it's not a treat.  This year I want to bake a Buche de Noel.  I made one a few years ago but I think I can do better this year.  One of the blessing about not working is I can take the time during the day to bake.

I need to start blogging again.  It can be therapeutic.