Monday, November 25, 2019

Blue

I attended a memorial service today for a 25 year old who ended his own life.  No parent should ever have to bury their own child.  The church was packed.  Every person who spoke did eloquently--not too short, not too long.  

I've never felt so down or hopeless that I didn't want to be here.  But, people actually do have those feelings.  It's so hard to reconcile that people are in that much pain.  It makes me very sad to think of their suffering.  

I took my son with me today.  There were so many young adults in the church.  My son is the same age as the brother who was left behind.  They go to high school together and attend Sunday school together.  I know the mom from church and other things.  She is a lovely person who has had a lot of tragedy in her life--not including this one.  My prayer is for strength for both of them.  I pray they will feel the love of Christ surrounding them.  

This was the first funeral/memorial that I attended where a parent has outlived the child.  In all my days, I hope I never have to experience another one.  

Friday, September 27, 2019

Tonight we are hosting some scientists from China.  I think they have been in town for a few days.  One of them was here a few years ago for several months.  He's a nice guy.  I think we'll have burgers and hot dogs.  I mean, we can't serve them Chinese Food, can we?!?!  I'm such a slacker though.  I used to make homemade desserts (I'm good at it) but I haven't had time this week.  I like working full time but it cuts into my creativity!  And housework.  

Other than that, there is not a lot going on.  A birthday party (dinner party) to attend to Saturday evening with friends.  I'm looking forward to a lazy Saturday morning...

Wednesday, September 25, 2019

Happy Fall!

Hello!  It's been a while.  Things are going well.  My daughter is a senior (AACK) and my son is a sophomore in high school.  Time really does fly.  

We have become "house poor" with the addition, but so happy to be able to host dinner parties.  It's nice not being embarrassed of one's home!  Now, I love having people over!

My title of "happy fall" is sort of misleading.  I like fall...as long as it doesn't end too quickly.  I'm not a fan of winter.  I like the crisp, cool days of sunshine that September gives.  It won't be too long before the skies stay gray and it turns colder.  I know I shouldn't wish the days away, but in the next few months, I most definitely will.

And then there is my daughter and her senior year in high school.  In some ways, I wish I could stop time or make it slow down a bit.  I feel the need to savor every moment with her knowing that next year things will change.  I'm sure she will be ready, though.  And a teenager daughter is not always easy to get along with.  There are the mood swings and drama of high school kids.  Hard classes (she frets over anything that is not an A) and essay writing for colleges.  Field hockey practice every day when there is not a game.  She's a starter this year, so there's that.  I love hearing her name over the loud speaker.  I know that next year this will just be a memory.  The house will be feel different next year for sure.

Sunday, January 31, 2016

Weekend re-cap...

It was a fun weekend.  We left work early and took the kids out of school on Friday.  We drove north about 3 hours to Watkins Glen, NY to meet up with some friends.  My husband's best friend from high school/college bought a summer home on Seneca Lake.  He wanted us up there when he did the final walk through and got the keys.  It's a beautiful home with huge windows, a dock and boat.  He has many acres of woods and a great yard.  But being on the water is the key.  The kitchen is awesome.  We came home Saturday night.  

Today, we finally made it to church as a family!  It felt good to sit together again.  I no longer work on the weekends so it's a priority to get back into the routine.  After church, we went home and got the kids' sports stuff together before we headed to my husband's cousin's baptism.  I'm not Catholic but I was the Christian Witness for the baptism.  My little cousin, by marriage, is so cute.  He was so well-behaved the whole time.  A real doll at 4 months.  Then we all headed to lunch with my husband's uncle, aunt, cousin and her partner and the little baby.  It's nice having family in town (even if it's by marriage).

Speaking of family...my sister and mom will be coming in March for a visit.  I'm looking forward to it.  My dad doesn't want to spend the money to come up.  Oh well.

Needless to say, it wasn't a very restful weekend.  I did enjoy it, though, and it's nice to have a job during the week and the weekends off. 

Sunday, January 03, 2016

Happy New Year! (a couple of days late)

It's 2016 now.  Gosh, I can remember when it was 1976.  I sound old, I know.  It's amazing how time has flown by.  My dad said it would go by faster and faster.  He certainly was right.

I've never been one for resolutions.  But, rather, it's good to focus on new beginnings.  Today was my last day at the airport.  I recently started a full-time job at the free medical clinic where I have volunteered as a phlebotomist since 2009.  I started Oct 2015.  I tried to keep both jobs (mainly for the flight benefits with the airline), but soon it was very overwhelming.  With a family and all the activities that go with it, I just couldn't keep up.  So, today I start out with just one job outside of the home.  It will be nice.  

I can actually get into a routine.  A first.  I plan to exercise regularly since I won't be "throwing" bags anymore.  

I plan to sleep in on Saturdays and relax around the breakfast table.  I'm looking forward to spoiling the kids with crepes on a regular basis.

I plan to get back into going to church regularly.  I'm sure my husband will miss the slacking, but it's good for me to feel centered and balanced.  I no longer will have to work strange hours (very early or very late) so it will be easier to get up on Sunday. 

It will be nice to plan on dinner with friends after work and know that I won't get stuck because of a delayed flight or cancelled one.  

Don't get me wrong.  I loved working with the recent group.  The boss was wonderful and she never yelled.  The supervisors were very nice and tried to be fair.  This is not the norm in the airline industry and I valued it from the start.  The flight benefits were awesome.  I took the kids to Madrid this past summer.  I recently flew to Lisbon in October just before I started the full-time job.  I'm so glad I did, too.  I love to travel and experience different places, but it just wasn't going to happen as much as I liked.  These two kids of mine need me to be around.  I need to be there in the morning to assist them so they can catch the bus.  I need to be there after school to run them to whatever practice they are doing that day.  It's all good.  I left the airline on a good note.  I worked the gate today and both flights were on time.  Who knows?  I might end up in the industry again some day.  It's addictive.  The flying, the people, etc.  

For now, I will concentrate on the new job and doing the best I can there.  It's a new chapter, a different phase.  And it will all work out.