My new favorite bird

I've always loved the roadrunner, the woodpecker (all kinds) and the cardinal.  But recently, the hummingbird has taken my fancy.  We have a feeder just outside the window by the kitchen table.  I sit here when I'm on the computer.  I've been watching several hummingbirds all summer, but lately, we've only had one.  The feathers look unkempt and muted in color.  I think this one is trying to fatten up before the long journey to warmer climates.  Some days, the pesky wasps scare off the bird by ganging up on him.  My favorite being bothered by my least favorite of all.  

I can feel fall descending upon us.  Gray skies, cooler temperatures.  Perhaps, that's the reason for my melancholy today.  My husband's father was here the past weekend and we had a lovely time.  Maybe the let-down from having company is responsible, too.  

One thing that cheers me up for sure is travel and planning travel.  I *hope* to make it to Portugal Saturday.  My friend is flying there from France and since I'm back at the airport, I'm going standby.  I'm anxious and excited and hoping the shift trade gets approved so I can fly out Friday night.  I've never been to Portugal but have only heard great things about it.  Fingers crossed.

Yes, I'm working again at the airport.  It's for a different company and a different manager.  She's great, my age and very fair.  She'll thank me as she's heading out for the day and I thank her for being a reasonable boss.  She knows the other guy I used to work for, so she knows it's a real compliment.  

I don't know why, but I really like the airline industry.  The pay is horribly low and I don't know how people really make a go at it.  If my husband didn't have a great job, I would be looking for something else--I would have to.  The health care field is all but nil in this town.  No nuclear med jobs to think of.  A clinic had an opening maybe 6 months ago and I didn't even get an interview.  I've all but given up on getting back into the lucrative field.  Some days I miss it, others not so much.  I still volunteer at the free medical clinic in town and it's gratifying.  But...I'm conflicted.  I feel like I need a break, but feel guilty for feeling that way.  

I'm going to try to blog more often now.  The kids are both in middle school and God knows I've got time on my hands.

Thanks for reading.

XOXO

"Sticks and stones may break my bones
But words will never hurt me."

If only this were true.

My husband went on a hunting trip last Wednesday.  I've been on my own for a few days.  It has been easier than when the kids were very young, but I've been driving and driving and driving.  They have activities such as tutoring, piano, guitar, and sports.  Today was a very busy, but fun day.  Still, I don't know how single parents keep their sanity.  I'm exhausted.  And lonely.  

So, one of the carriers at the airport is hiring.  I applied and am waiting to hear back.  I don't know if I'm ready for the early mornings but I need to be around people and feel like I'm doing something worthwhile.  I still volunteer but that's about it for getting out and about.  It sucks to be an extrovert sometimes.

I'm missing being around family too.  I enjoyed Christmas break so much.  It was fun to hang out with my sister and her husband.  It was great seeing my parents.  I saw my brother's granddaughters.  Sigh.  I'm working on my attitude on living in the cold north.  As my mom once told me, "Bloom where you're planted."