I been a little down lately. I don't know if it's the change of weather (fall), the fact that my mom just left last week after a short visit, I'm not getting to work much lately at the hospital, or what? Change is hard and I'm definitely in a state of transition. I always thought I would be working more once both kids were in school but I'm realizing it's the opposite. I'll admit it, I like making money. And I don't want to work a job just to work. I want to feel like I'm doing something that really makes a difference (and be well compensated for it, too.) I guess I'm going to have to make some decisions regarding this.

One thing I always wanted to do once the kids were both in school was to volunteer at the Centre Volunteers in Medicine. I'm not a dentist or doctor or nurse, but I can take blood pressures, draw blood and answer phones. I'm attending an orientation for volunteers this Thursday evening to check it out. While it will be missing the money component, I can see how volunteering here would definitely be helping people and making a difference.

My mom and I had a good visit. It was short because I'm sure she doesn't like being away from my dad too long. He's 75 and is slipping a bit. Both kids asked why Papaw didn't come and I really didn't have a good answer. When my mom asked my dad about it, he said he didn't want to buy an airplane ticket. I guess money is more important to my dad than his grand kids. My son worships my dad. It does break my heart. I've been struggling with that a bit. My in-laws are better off financially than my parents but I doubt they will come here again since my mother-in-law has a hard time traveling. The Alzheimer's has gotten really bad and it's just too hard on everyone involved. But, my father-in-law makes an effort to see the kids by flying them up there or taking us on trips. And when he is around the kids, he's actually there with them. He reads to them, plays games, and engages. This is something my dad doesn't do.

I did have some fun this week. I saw Couple's Retreat and it was LOL funny. And then last night I played Bunco. I played Bunco when I lived in Wisconsin and it was always a lot of fun. One of the soccer moms from Clayton's team needed a sub so I got to go. I needed it.

I guess that's enough moaning for now. I need to see the good in this day. It is going to be a beautiful day and I'm finally over this cold. I want to get back on that treadmill or run outside today.