Have you ever been in a funk? Or down or depressed? I've been a little down the past two days. Or maybe a little longer. I'm not sure.
I'm settling into the routine of the new semester (for the kids) and I'm finding that the days I don't work, I feel a little down. I'm busy on Sunday, Monday and Tuesday but the other days of the week are empty. So, I've been thinking I need to make a change. But what change?
I like my job, mostly. Oh yeah, it's a blue-collar job with some rough people, but the benefits are great! I would miss the freedom the job gives me. And I love working with the public. I've always loved it. I loved it in health care and I love it in the airline industry. I think the main frustration I have at work is that coworkers with not-so-good people skills work inside with the customers when they shouldn't. Seriously, a "please" and "thank-you" go a long way and the words hardly are ever muttered from some coworker's lips.
Another frustration is that very young people without life experiences are supervisors. Yeah, unbelievable. The mere fact that they are full-time or have worked at the place 3 months longer than someone else qualifies them to be in charge. (and all that without a please or thank you to the customer).
I'm still volunteering as a phlebotomist once a week at the free clinic. I find I'm happiest when I'm doing that. It's easy work (and I love finding veins!) and the people are so pleasant to work with. I'm sure the paid staff is probably underpaid but wants to be there for all the right reasons. Most of the patients are appreciative. I enjoy seeing return customers! But I'm there for about 2 hrs a week. I'm sure they would let me volunteer more, but after a while I'm sure I would grow to resent it. There is something to getting paid for your services.
And then there's something else. Before Christmas we went to a live, acoustic concert at the public radio facility. They made an announcement they were looking for volunteers to host the folk show on Saturday mornings from 6 to 8 am. It wouldn't be every Saturday. So, I looked into it and met with the guy at the studio. But now I'm feeling a little guilty because I think it will require more commitment than I want to do right now. Not to mention, I really don't want to get up that early on Saturday. Ugh.
I think that's what's weighing on me right now. Decisions to be made. No one said life would be easy...